I wonder what it’s like to have that much power over a boy. I don’t think I’d want it; it’s a lot of responsibility to hold a person’s heart in your hands.
Buttering a roll, my dad says, “I like Peter.” "You do?“ I say. Daddy nods. “He’s a good kid. He’s really taken with you, Lara Jean.” "Taken with me?“ I repeat. To me Kitty says, "You sound like a parrot.” To Daddy she says, “What does smitten mean? Taken by her?” “It means he’s charmed by her,“ Daddy explains. "He’s smitten.” “Well, what’s smitten?” He chuckles and stuffs the roll in Kitty’s open, perplexed mouth. “It means he likes her.”
I’ve never gotten a love letter before. But reading these notes like this, one after the other, it feels like I have. It’s like … it’s like there’s only ever been Peter. Like everyone else that came before him, they were all to prepare me for this.
My arms are at my sides so the jets won’t make my skirt fly up. Peter’s holding my face in his hands, kissing me. “Are you okay?” he whispers. His voice is different: it’s ragged and urgent and vulnerable somehow. He doesn’t sound like the Peter I know; he is not smooth or bored or amused. The way he’s looking at me now, I know he would do anything I asked, and that’s a strange and powerful feeling.
“Look,” he says kindly. “I think you’re cute. In a quirky way. But Gen and I just broke up, and I’m not in a place right now where I want to be somebody’s boyfriend. So …”
My mouth drops. Peter Kavinsky is giving me the brush-off! I don’t even like him, and he’s giving me the brush-off. Also, “quirky”? How am I “quirky”? “Cute in a quirky way” is an insult. A total insult!
peter’s “you were never second best” really gets to me, bc it really shows that it was in fact real for peter the whole time, from the second lara jean accepted their ‘fake’ relationship he was really whipped for her, i stan one (1) soft boy